Relationships.
Do you ever look back to past and wonder what could of happened if you went through with a relationship? If people wouldn’t of moved away, or have moved on, could you actually have had something there? That’s how I feel most of the time. For the majority of my life, and I’m not ashamed to admit it, not a lot of guys have liked me - or have told me they have at least. I haven’t even kissed a guy before (besides on the cheek which doesn’t count). It sucks, to be honest. Especially when you see all of your friends looking so adorable with their little loves on their arm. You have to wonder when it will be your turn. But it also is a good thing to not have a lot of experience at a young age I think. I hear a ton of stories at sleepovers and when I’m out with the girls about how far someone went with a guy and how proud they are of it. I’ve even heard of people creating point systems where you can “score more points” by doing things with the more popular kids. I’m just sitting there like what the heck is wrong with you? Since when has love been a game? Maybe I’m just a hopeless romantic, but don’t you see where I’m coming from? Teenagers throw the word “love” around like it’s nothing anymore. They go on one date and they are automatically in a relationship. It’s crazy. Girls around here throw themselves at guys like no other and act desperate so maybe that’s why they get into so many quick flings, but honestly, what is wrong with the world! hahaha. Another thing is how girls date guys who are cute and don’t even care about their personalities! I mean, yeah, being attractive obviously helps but can you really date someone with no substance? I can sort of sit back and look at my friends mistakes to use for my prior knowledge in relationships now at least.
Anyways, my whole point is, is that I know I might not get a lot of guys, and I might not say yes to the ones that ask me for the time of day, but I’m not just going to date anything that walks the face of the earth. It shouldn’t matter about experience, it should matter if you actually like the person you are with for who they are on the inside and out. It’s not bad to be a bit picky when you want to commit yourself to someone after all.
